Recovery has been slow but sure. I can feel strength creeping into my body but the heart rate and lungs get that searing sting when I try to run long. I am still walking the hill at Aarey but I feel resigned to doing it. Besides, I have gotten wiser since I know that any foolhardy attempt at coasting it, could set me back a few months.
I stirred in my bed while it was dark as a grave outside. The faint ghostly blue glow on my wrist-watch showed 00:52. Today was even worse; my insomnia usually nudges me awake at 2:30am and I am only able to drift back at 4am. I tossed around and after a while Dojo came by to enquire about the ruckus I was creating with rustling bedsheets:) I gave him a cursory scratch under the chin and he wagged his tail with bored acknowledgement of my attention. I looked at the watch again and it said 3:15am; that is 2+hrs that I have been awake! I crawled out of bed and hobbled to the kitchen, the achy limbs reminding me of yesterday' run at Aarey. I fixed myself a hot cuppa 'Earl' Grey' and munched on a 'Pain au chocolat', an indulgence from the Theobroma Patisierie that we allow ourselves on weekends. The maid stirred in her sleep and gave me an incredulous look when she saw the tea cup.
The tea calmed me a bit and a blissful sleep took over until I was rudely awakened by my alarm going off at 6:30am. I rubbed the sleep out of my eyes, stepped into my shoes and entered my own world of wafting lonely as a clod:) over hills and vales at Aarey. There was a pleasant drizzle that made things exhilarating and yet, contained my exertions. There weren't too many walkers today and I had the forest to myself. I could hear the hiss of drizzle, the rumble of a BEST bus grinding gears and the clip-clop of my shoes skiming puddles. I needed a flight of fantasy. I wished I could join my guys for an x/12 in the near future to get back my dignity - damn! why am I making a big deal of all this? I decided to be ludicruous and make myself a promise and the only way I could remind myself was thru' SPANDAU BALLET;
http://www.sortmusic.com/_s/spandau-ballet-song,tiI%27ll%20Fly%20For%20You,len.html
Passion take the wind
and break me from this tie
we're mortals on the earth
oh but God's up in the sky
I haven't got a clue
I haven't got a thing
but what I give to you
is all that I could bring
I'll give you all my time
that's everything to me
you know my only crime
is this flight of fantasy
Chorus:
because I've nothing else here for you
and just because it's easier than the truth
oh if there's nothing else that I can do
I'll fly for you
